WHEN I AM AWAY FROM WHAT I AM

People around me wonder why I cannot stop drawing. When I am in class I draw at the end of the notebook, or at the corners of the page, or design someone’s name. When I am alone I am more excited to draw and paint. When I am crowed by people I observe them. When I am alone with nature I imagine...

Well, the answer to why an artist is so dedicated is within the artist himself. An artist has mixed emotions for every living and non living thing around himself which drives him to perform the act of depiction of the life on a canvas. When I am not drawing, I feel something is missing in me. I feel that I am not myself. And this is what happens when I am not what I am.

The blank paper lying in front of me is my soul and I get a feeling that I should make it as handsome as possible. The paint brush smiles at me and asks me to hold it in my hands and make a master piece! The sketch pens winks at me signalling me to animate something! My best friend, the black gel pen tickles me to draw something funky just to make people around me to pop up with happiness! When I look at the colour pencils, whom I always try to avoid, make a sad face, which melts my heart and I am super excited to draw something deep and colourful! When think of the water colours, beautiful landscapes just run through my eyes, letting in me the energy to put them on paper. Having the capacity to turn the most colourful and bright thing in the world, into the pitch of black and white, the shading pencils, stare at me and wanting to spread the grey into this world in the best way possible making it look more soothing, magnificent and elegant. The white pallet lying like a barren land without any colours makes me feel pity on it; and I get an urge to splash some vibrant colour on it.

The dazzling nature orders me to put her on paper. The cartoons dance around me and get into medium that I am holding so as to come to life. Every face I look at, smiles, and requests me to make a copy of it. Every name, every word in this world, pleads to me to be written in the most beautiful way.

Having so many cravings in my mind, body, heart, and my hands wanting to grab a pencil, can I stay leaving a bare canvas just blank??? 

The final break up??

Two souls that came into existence for salvation of each other, two lives that came to birth to spread sunshine on one another, two bodies that were meant for each other are now standing apart and yearning for each other.

The girl stands near the window and looks at the sunset recalling every evening that she spent with him. She admires the sunset and hopes that their love does not set like the sun. Also she has some hope that once the sun sets there is always going to be a sunrise. The sun goes down and it starts drizzling and she enjoys the water by stretching her hand out of the window. Again recalling all the memories of she getting drenched in rain with her loved one. Tears roll down her eye. She closes her eyes and wishes upon a star that let there be a way to get back to him, to be with him all her life. She yearns for him, wishes that he is back but, she cannot tell him to do so. Swiftly the rain turns deep and the sky turns dark, she reflects her life in the dark sky knowing that it has to end for the better of none.

She is aware that he is yearning and waiting for her at the other end. He would have gotten up in the morning, picked up his cell phone would probably want to call her and tell ‘baby I want you back in my life.’ But he puts the phone down in grief. Taking a deep breath he sets for the day ahead, aware that she is no more with him. Recollecting all the laughter that used to be spread when she was around and wondering what went wrong!

Life sometimes does not treat you well. Given a chance the wrong could be made right. But the chance has to wait. Patience. Patience is the key to catch anything in life. Will these two souls come together? Will these two bodies who are emotionally, mentally and physically into each other come together? Or, is this break up the final break up? People who are in an actual relationship for more than a year will get this straight! ‘Is this break up the final break up?’